Every day I get a little closer to the edge. I notice things I normally don't and then things start to seem really messed up!

Lately I have been sleeping longer.I can normally go to bed at 12 in the morning and wake up at 10 feeling fine. Lately I go to bed at 12, and if I am not woken up, I sleep until well past 11 sometime 12 in the afternoon and I still feel very tired.

I have also noticed that I seem to be eating more chocolate than anything else, which is very strange for me. . .

The necklace. . .
I take it off to have showers and I usually remember to put it back on. I took it off the other day, had a shower, brushed my hair and got dressed. I left he house to go pick someone up and I forgot my necklace! I got home and put it on right away.

I find my self thinking less about him everyday, and it scares me. I really do like him, I want him to be safe, I want him to be happy. I know he wants the same for me. I feel as though I can tell him anything, no matter how tough it is to say I know he will understand.

I feel like I only want to sleep away the day. I don't want to wake up, I don't want to eat much. I want him to be with me and help me. Help with what though???

I don't feel sick when he is around anymore. . . I hate it when he leaves. I feel very safe with him. I refuse to let him do things for me simply because I don't want to depend on him for everything and fall to fast. . .

I think I want to just go poof!
I have things I want to do but I will never be able to. . .
Poof. . .
Gone. . .
Forever lost. . .